I did not get a chance to write my weekly Oil Update/Recipe/Fun Fact because I got to be a temporary full-time worker again at the Western Home, doing what I used to do before Kaylee blessed us with her appearance.
I have to admit, I LOVED being back. I loved seeing the faces of everyone again and working with the awesome people that make that job worth while. I missed being there.
I was a good worker there, but I wasn’t a good Mom, or I didn’t feel like it. For over 8 months I was home all day, watching my little girl taking new milestones like a champion. I thought to myself how much of that I would have missed if I worked 8 hours a day all the time again.
I know mothers who can do this. I really have respect for them. It probably wouldn’t be as hard if I committed to full-time work after a maternity leave. However, after staying home for so long and seeing how much I would love it, the transition to working again would be much harder.
I had asked Harold his thoughts after my few days of working. “Is it better to come home to a wife that’s not been working all day?” Harold’s response was “It’s nice to have a wife that’s not mentally preparing for the next day while I’m home.” I’m a better wife for Harold here at home as well. Sure, I bet in time I would adjust to being a working mother. But since God has given me this blessing to be able to stay home, why shouldn’t I just embrace it?
Sometimes I feel lazy. Other times I feel overjoyed and blessed. In the long run, I’m just glad that I can really raise my daughter. I can see the milestones first hand when they happen. I know by daughter better at home. I would miss about 9 hours of her day for 5 days of the week. That means for the first year, I only get her for an hour or two 5 days of the week before she needs to go to bed. Only 2 hours to pour my love into this girl. I’m sorry, but I personally need more time than that. My heart really yearns for that, so I’m glad I can be here.
If I needed to, I would work. But I don’t. =) I can stay home and do part-time random things to help with finances as needed. I can work from home on my hours. I embrace this life, and I wouldn’t change it. It’s what my family needs from me.